For a moment there I thought I was pleased that my father left me this vast collection of artifacts to fuel my creativity. Then it manifested itself as My Pleasure My Treasure. It just felt long, like it was taking forever for me to hang him. I didn’t realize it was more humane when I named the project.
This method of hanging is designed to break the neck as opposed to plain old strangulation and is considered a way to make executions more humane. Then it became The Long Drop, a hangman’s term. It was called Digging Marina when I was sorting through all the documentation like an archaeologist and dragging my reel to reel into therapy to try and make sense of it all. It has been a one-woman show at The NY Fringe Festival called A Play with Myself. I’ve been working on The Marina Experiment since 1997. This new incarnation of The Marina Experiment is a showcase for my father’s documentation as well as a place for me to voice my opinions about everything. This is probably an urban myth, but I like it because it illustrates something that feels like it applies to all this watching and looking I’ve been talking about but I’m not exactly sure what that is. Another passenger noticed a truck about to pass the bus and yelled “Look out!” which caused the Frenchman to stick his head further out the window and get hit by the truck. I remember hearing a story about a French tourist in America, hanging his head out a bus window. Now I am chronicling his view of me through my own digital video microscope and you can watch me watch my father watch me.
The vintage photographs throughout this site were all taken by my father and are part of this overwhelming heap of tempestuous baggage that compels me to search for answers.
#THE EXPERIMENT 2010 فلم HOW TO#
I became obsessed with how to archive it, what to do with it, how to handle it. I created a logbook with chronological outlines of everything and all the transcripts of our taped conversations and lists of everything I could make a list of. I filed everything by year, then by category, then back into years. I looked at every photograph and divided them into categories. I listened to every audiotape and I typed out every word as a script. I numbered each film and logged every scene. I watched every movie, listened to every tape and looked at every photo.
#THE EXPERIMENT 2010 فلم FULL#
After he died, I went through his stuff and found boxes full of reel-to-reel audiotape, super 8 films, and over 10,000 photographs. My father spent 16 years viewing me through a microscope.